Sunday, May 2, 2010

Waxing Philosophical

My life, of late, has become something of a difficulty. I have struggled to find the happiness I once thought I had, and struggled to find the blunders with which to blame my frustrations. As I sometimes do, I ventured home this afternoon to seek advice from the old man. After a good talk, and the shedding of some tears (sometimes it just feels good to cry), I realized that my life is not all that bad.

I'm not saying I am depressed, I'm just saying I often neglect to see the forest for all the trees. During the past few difficult weeks, life has smiled on me more than I have allowed myself to see. I need to better learn to see the little pockets of happiness that are given to me on a regular basis.

I have a wonderful family who supports me more than I deserve - be it professional or personal, they are there. My family loves me, no matter who I am or who I become.

I have an education and a job that collectively afford me an enjoyable quality of life, with many luxuries that a lot of the world aren't given. I have a roof over my head, food to eat, clean water, and an abundance of clothing.

I have friends that care about me and my happiness.

I have a loving Heavenly Father who knows me better than I know myself, and allows me to experience trials in life that will make me a better person in the end.

We all know that I love the Mayer, and once again I found his lyrical genius soothing my battered soul this afternoon: "Pain throws your heart to the ground. Love turns the whole thing around. No, it won't all go the way it should, but I know the heart of life is good."

6 comments:

{she + him} said...

I showered myself with self pity yesterday. I complained about so many minute details of my life. Sometimes it does the body good to have a good cry and assess one's situation. Thank goodness for men who can talk sense into women!

tiburon said...

Awww Stace I love you more than the sea.

For reals.

I think you are the bees knees - and I am glad the old man could hook you up.

I have been there - and it sucks - but it gets better.

Love your guts!!!

TPlayer said...

Isn't it interesting that your recent downer time directly coincides with the weeks that we haven't had a movie night??? Coincidence?- I think NOT! more movies, less excuses!

Here are 2 quotes I came across yesterday: They're by Brian Andreas... "Are you a princess? I said & she said I'm much more than a princess, but you don't have a name for it yet here on earth."

"Anyone can slay a dragon, he told me, but try waking up every morning and loving the world all over again. That's what takes a real hero".

Alex Hall said...

That is one of my favorites from that cd Stacey...one other line that always lifts me "Then circle of your friends will defend the silver lining". You'll always have your friends there for you as I know you'd be there for them. You're one of the good ones my friend.

Princess Zelda said...

Stace- U r great! I just wanted to let u know! (P.S. I'm ur dear cousin, Nikki)

Loni said...

You are brave to put your feelings to words and I'm hoping for more sunshine in your life (and heart). You have some great parents (I do, too) and how wonderful that they are there for you!